Now that the bit between Christmas and New Year, where you don’t know what day it is, who you are and what you are supposed to be doing is over, realty has sunken in. Back to work I go come Monday [January 7] and then in a blink baby no. 2 will be here [end of February]. AHHHH!
How it is already 2019..? How did Christmas and New Year’s happen..?
This pregnancy has seriously flown, and I mean f.l.o.w.n. by. With Parker, I felt pregnant for 5 years, longing for his due date to come, now, I need time to slow down. Something I struggle with is how can I welcome another baby into this world when the thought of sharing my time with someone other then Parker sounds so scary? I hope I am not alone on this, but I want to be honest with you guys.
I LOVE being a mom. It is the hardest job I have ever done and will probably ever do. From growing the baby [+working], giving birth and raising tiny humans. It is hard work. Hard-hard-work and we deserve a pat on the back every dang day! Mamas, give it up for yourselves, and stay at home dads, I see you too!
Before having Parker, I had planned to stay home for a year and then go back to the corporate world again. However, after seeing P for the first time, I knew that plan was out the window. My new dream is to stay home until he is in full-time school. Then, we got pregnant again [yay!] when P was 11 months. So things just kind of happened and my dream is becoming reality. Being a stay at home mom, I do struggle that sometimes I am not contributing enough financially to our family. If you have been following, then you will know that I do babysit full-time currently. But..everything is a little tight.. money, time and energy. What I have come to realize is that my role in this family is actually kind of huge. I have developed savvy ways to save our money and of course to spend it.
So 2018, thank you for making me wiser, fatter [lol] and a better human. I have learned so much more about myself than in previous years combined. My most valued discovery is that I have learned true patience. My husband would say otherwise, but when he says Chick-Fil-A fries now or later, of course it’s now and later, and later again.
2019, I am ready. Two under two, going to celebrate 5 years with my better half, and my goal is self care. Big plans, big goals and all the love.